What you really think about

Remember the not too long ago anti-drug commercials that used an egg and a frying pan to illustrate the dangers of drugs? "This is your brain. 'c-ra-ck'. sizzle, sizzle. This is your brain on drugs." I've found that I relate to that image some days in dealing with constant pain. Coping with pain day after day messes with your head. Sometimes you think crazy thoughts. I've at times felt hopelessness, dread, paranoia, fear, self-loathing, guilt, anger, self-pity.



I've taken a break for about 9 months now from writing. In part because by the time I finish work every day, I'm too beat to do much of anything. It's been very depressing. I have thoughts I want to put down on paper, er...screen? But I'm just too tired and in a fog to tackle it.

I have however been encouraged recently by the discovery of another blogger, "Gitzen Girl". She is inspiration for me. So...I'm going to pick this up once again. And a lot of things have happened this year. So here I go...